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When Darkness Falls
Most of my life the sun never shined
I pray for the light through my deepest darkess times
I lay in my bed asking God why?
Why you chose me? To live in this life
My world is so cold and its hard to survive
I try to believe that the worst is behind
When i take a step forward, i fall several times
Making me feel like im losing my mind
I say on to thee
MY GOD! I WANNA BE FREE!
Free of all the pain and all the misery
IM GOING INSANE!
OH GOD! CANT YOU SEE!?
I dont wanna remain in this life you gave to me
I call out your name
MY LORD OH HOLY! Forgive me
MY GOD have mercy
Deliver my soul because im losing control
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I drop to my knees and seen why Jesus wept
My Father in Heaven, have you turned your back on me?
I feel so alone because you never talk to me
I cry every night, hoping that you will see
I wanna be saved and serve you faithfully
The sun never shines, it only rains and storms on me
Tough times ahead, and more tears to shed
I cry out, NOMORE!
I cant take this spiritual war!
No one knows what i have to adore
They wouldnt believe the things that i saw
See, i believe that the end is near
Satan is whispering, hes whispering in my ear, saying Girl you better, you better fear
He grabbed on to me and said he aint going nowhere
This is the burden i carry with me
Do you hear me My Lord?
I need you desperately
He said on to me, turn away from him, satan knows that he can never win because the path he chose, a world full of sin
His life has already been condemned
I said to the lord, I thank you gracefully because all along you’ve carried me
Its hard to believe that the devil is after me
He comes into the night and attacks me in my sleep
I say my prayers to the one and only
Our Father in Heaven can you please protect me?
I just wanna be free and live my life in peace but im feeling so scared because its to much to bare
The sun never shines, just darkness falls on me
Will victory be mine? Or will i be damned for eternity?
This Woman Hurts
I Never really thought about it
Until i sat down and cried
Why do so many men come into my life?
They come into my life just to say goodbye
Leaving me by myself asking God why?
Why is it always me?
The one that hurts and cries
My whole life has changed from all of the lies
All i ever wanted was for a man to call my own
But somehow i wound up being all alone
Now my life is filled with shame
The pain in my heart remains the same
This woman hurts because of a playa’s game
I am a human being, just like the rest
Looking for love, not this mess
What got me in this trouble, was listening to my flesh
Instead of using my head
And realizing this is one of life’s test
If i wanted to be treated as a whore, i would’ve been went through satan’s doors
Having you fella’s screaming for more
But no, i chose that detour
Which means i expect more
More from a man to know and find out
Understand who i am
NOT JUST WHAM BLAM!
THANK YOU MA’AM
Theres more to me that meets the eye
If you just give it a try
Instead of wandering about me beneath and how i am between the sheets
Maybe one day finally that real man will come along and see
Monique is truly that wife to be
My reality now
Im here on playa’s ground
Its either them or me we shall see
Did i learn from my mistakes?
Or accept defeat
HELL TO THE NO!
Because this woman hurts from all the dirt
Being misses nicey nice
That dont work
The rain of pain, that was always near
Real woman here!!
So you better beware!!
How deep is the pain?
Deep as shit
And i cant take another hit
You Men better quit before i catch a damn fit!
“SNIP SNIP!”
This woman hurts and i dont care one bit
May have been one of the sweetest Woman in the world!
Just became a playa’s meanest Bad Girl!
Family Went Wrong
Family went wrong from the day i was born
There was no sign of love except from above
I lay in my mother’s womb
Only to find out, it was really my prison tomb
How could it be? No family for me
I said to the lord, why did you do this to me?! Send me into a world of hate and onto a family who dont appreciate the blessing you sent to them
A child like me who they dont even see
The pain is deep, to deep for me
So i cry out to u lord because i need you desperately
How did it all go wrong
Should i have never been born?
I question this lord because my family is so torn
What can i do to make it right
There is still no sign of my family’s love, so i cry every night
Wishing it could be my family and me But that can never be true because me and my family are through
I never existed to them, a child they turned their back to
Born November 4th 1972
My life didnt end there, it only just begun
The lord said to me, your true blessings are near and your victory will be One
The day will come when you will see that family that went wrong is in the past you see
You’re blessed with 2 girls, who loves you faithfully
Our bond is strong and very tight, a Family once went wrong has now gone right
Thank you Jesus with all my might
For helping me win this endless fight
God you answered my prayers and washed away all of my tears, you gave me the strength and courage to face my fears on being alone
That pain i once felt is finally gone
Now my 2 children and I can peacefully move on
Nobody Knows
Nobody knows why my brother
Chose to end his life with a drug overdose
When we were little
We were so close
Oh how i loved my big brother
Out of everybody i loved him the most
Nobody knows about my little sister
Damn i really miss her
Her smart little mouth
You know the one that cursed us all out
This was a way for her to express herself
Sometimes she would just shout
Nobody knows that’s not all she was about
She was a good girl, a single mother even
Baby girl just chose the wrong route
Losing two siblings in the same damn year
Nobody really knows when their time is near
Nobody knows who i really am
Im a Inspirational Poet
And a Strong Black Woman
Nobody knows why i write the way i write
I write about the truth, based on true life
Nobody knows when the world will get a chance to meet me
Aslong as i keep telling my stories correctly
The world would have met me known as the girl who always spoke her words poetically
Nobody knows if some will cheer for me
Or basically just hate on me
But what i do know still in all, imma always stand tall
And take what God has giving me, a Blessing and accept it gracefully
Nobody knows the decisions we all make or the path we decide to take
What we should know is, these things can either make or break us
So at the end of the day
These are the things we need to know, before its all to late
Nobody knows should be NOW WE ALL KNOW
That life is to short and we cant take too long to right all of our wrongs
Just a little knowledge
Hope it wasnt to much
Written sincerely through my Poetic Touch, God Bless
Forgotten
Why are we forgotten like we are someones blast from the past?
I just had to ask
Because im really tired of being labled as the outcast
Im really not that bad
I just tell it like it is
And for that you cant get mad
I have my flaws just like anyone else
The difference with me is
I dont make anybody feel bad about
themselves and i never will because its just not in me
I was never a jealous person
And i dont specialize in envy
Unfortunately alot of judgemental souls staring at me from head to toe
Meanwhile yall just dont know what we are going through, if you only knew
But then again you never will because weve been forgotten by all of you
OH HOW I LOVE THEE
My one and only
He use to make me feel like
Im the only one, his number one
And then it begun
He got up in my face
Such a disgrace
Making me feel for my love
He will kill
I was dying inside
Asking the lord why?
Why did this man choose to degrade
And mistreat me
I loved him wholeheartedly
Oh how i love thee
But all he ever did was lie and
Cheat on me
I wish i was blind
Because i really couldn’t see
But not literally
Atleast i would have an excuse for all the abuse
And telling myself this man dont care for you
Looking at myself from within
These were the days my troubles began
I felt like i stepped into a world of No mans land
Because all this man wanted to do was raise his hands
I just didn’t understand
You told me you loved me
And said you were my man
One of my biggest fans
You tore me down
Just because you thought u can
Your heart was black, it was all an act
Sealed with a kiss
How would i have known
I would meet your fist
Was i bamboozled?
No i was just tricked
This wasnt love, this was an
abusers blitz
This was for real, some real bad shit
Now i know how to let go
PAIN NOMORE!
Will i ever adore
Loving myself less and someone else more
I talk that talk and walk that walk
Allowing any abuse
I realize that was all my fault
Oh how i love thee
I’m more than a woman, its all in me
I was once blind
Now i can see
Being held captive, emotional and physically and all that misery
GUESS WHAT!
My world of pain no longer hinders me
Dark Clouds
I woke up this morning seeing this big black cloud, I remember saying to myself, WOW is this how its always going to be
My days dark with no sunshine for me, I truly dont believe that this is how the universe works, maybe just for me, everything is still in reverse