I Wanna Live Not Just Survive

I wanna live not just survive
I wanna be able to wake up happy
Not always cry

I hate feeling this way but thats whats inside, so I have to let it out, so I wont scream and shout

Im a Inspirational Poet
My struggle is real, just by looking at me
you wouldn’t even know it
Because no matter what im going through, I always manage to keep a smile on my face

But deep down inside theres a bitter taste thats trying to subside
But thats not always easy to do
Hide all of the hardships my family and I are currently going through

Yeah…who knew?!
Im Poetically Spoken
And I fell too
That just goes to show you the struggle is real

I just wanna be able to live my life and be happy, well…thats just how I feel

We tried seeking help but no one seems to care, which left my girls and I in the middle of nowhere Literally sleeping in my car, wasnt the best decision of mine, just means we didnt have a place to lay our heads at the time

I say it again I just wannna live and not just survive

I find myself stating that all the time
Cries in the dark, 3 broken hearts
It just seems like we dont matter but I know we do

Try taking a moment and step in our shoes
How would u feel if the whole world forgot about you?
Going to so called family who often turn there backs because they didnt care where we were at, under a bridge or in a parking lot

Is this the meaning of family? I think NOT!

Im Poetically Spoken, im here to share these powerful words from 3 voices that went unheard

United we are, united will always be

This is all apart of our dark and stormy journey, spoken poetically

Email : Godschild4048@gmail.com

When Darkness Falls

Most of my life the sun never shined
I pray for the light through my deepest darkess times
I lay in my bed asking God why?
Why you chose me? To live in this life

My world is so cold and its hard to survive
I try to believe that the worst is behind
When i take a step forward, i fall several times
Making me feel like im losing my mind

I say on to thee
MY GOD! I WANNA BE FREE!
Free of all the pain and all the misery

IM GOING INSANE!
OH GOD! CANT YOU SEE!?
I dont wanna remain in this life you gave to me

I call out your name
MY LORD OH HOLY! Forgive me
MY GOD have mercy

Deliver my soul because im losing control
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I drop to my knees and seen why Jesus wept

My Father in Heaven, have you turned your back on me?
I feel so alone because you never talk to me
I cry every night, hoping that you will see
I wanna be saved and serve you faithfully

The sun never shines, it only rains and storms on me
Tough times ahead, and more tears to shed

I cry out, NOMORE!
I cant take this spiritual war!

No one knows what i have to adore
They wouldnt believe the things that i saw

See, i believe that the end is near
Satan is whispering, hes whispering in my ear, saying Girl you better, you better fear
He grabbed on to me and said he aint going nowhere

This is the burden i carry with me
Do you hear me My Lord?
I need you desperately
He said on to me, turn away from him, satan knows that he can never win because the path he chose, a world full of sin
His life has already been condemned

I said to the lord, I thank you gracefully because all along you’ve carried me

Its hard to believe that the devil is after me
He comes into the night and attacks me in my sleep
I say my prayers to the one and only

Our Father in Heaven can you please protect me?
I just wanna be free and live my life in peace but im feeling so scared because its to much to bare

The sun never shines, just darkness falls on me
Will victory be mine? Or will i be damned for eternity?