Forgotten

Why are we forgotten like we are someones blast from the past?
I just had to ask

Because im really tired of being labled as the outcast

Im really not that bad
I just tell it like it is
And for that you cant get mad

I have my flaws just like anyone else
The difference with me is
I dont make anybody feel bad about
themselves and i never will because its just not in me

I was never a jealous person
And i dont specialize in envy

Unfortunately alot of judgemental souls staring at me from head to toe
Meanwhile yall just dont know what we are going through, if you only knew

But then again you never will because weve been forgotten by all of you

OH HOW I LOVE THEE

My one and only
He use to make me feel like
Im the only one, his number one

And then it begun
He got up in my face
Such a disgrace
Making me feel for my love
He will kill
I was dying inside
Asking the lord why?
Why did this man choose to degrade
And mistreat me
I loved him wholeheartedly

Oh how i love thee
But all he ever did was lie and
Cheat on me

I wish i was blind
Because i really couldn’t see
But not literally

Atleast i would have an excuse for all the abuse
And telling myself this man dont care for you

Looking at myself from within
These were the days my troubles began
I felt like i stepped into a world of No mans land
Because all this man wanted to do was raise his hands

I just didn’t understand
You told me you loved me
And said you were my man
One of my biggest fans

You tore me down
Just because you thought u can
Your heart was black, it was all an act

Sealed with a kiss
How would i have known
I would meet your fist

Was i bamboozled?
No i was just tricked
This wasnt love, this was an
abusers blitz
This was for real, some real bad shit

Now i know how to let go
PAIN NOMORE!

Will i ever adore
Loving myself less and someone else more

I talk that talk and walk that walk
Allowing any abuse
I realize that was all my fault

Oh how i love thee
I’m more than a woman, its all in me
I was once blind
Now i can see

Being held captive, emotional and physically and all that misery

GUESS WHAT!

My world of pain no longer hinders me

Im Drowning

I’m Drowning! Can somebody help me out?!
Why cant anybody hear me scream and shout!

How in the hell did I fall down this well?
I fell on down, all one hundred and fifty pounds

What!

Nobody didn’t hear that sound?

BOOM!

A Big Ole Crack
Lord I hope I didn’t break my back

I’m drowning and i’m calling
Funny how nobody didn’t see me falling

It happened a few minutes ago
Cant understand why anybody doesn’t know

I’m drowning, Please help me out!
I dont know how long I can keep the water from entering my mouth

Please dont ignore my cries & screams
Because if you do

Well…

Thats just mean

I’m Drowning
I’m in this well
And I still dont know how in the hell

Was i pushed ? or even thrown
All i know is, i’m drowning
And the answer is still unknown

Hopefully one day i’ll find out the truth

Did i fall down?
Or did someone give me a boost?

It really dont matter now

The fact is somebody left me here to drown

Part of who i am

I am a Mother First and a Writer second

I will never let anything or anyone come between me and my blessings

My 2 girls, they are truly my world, my black diamonds and pearls

Dark Clouds

I woke up this morning seeing this big black cloud, I remember saying to myself, WOW is this how its always going to be

My days dark with no sunshine for me, I truly dont believe that this is how the universe works, maybe just for me, everything is still in reverse

Walk in My Shoes

Try walking in my shoes
Waking up everyday not knowing
what to do
Feeling like the whole world is so against you

With every wandering eye
Wondering why, why are you here

But Excuse me, I have nowhere to go, neither here nor there
So please stop judging me & stop with the stares

I know stories like this are not often rare but im here to tell you, that this is me & my 2 daughters current nightmare