Family Went Wrong

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

Family went wrong from the day i was born
There was no sign of love except from above

I lay in my mother’s womb
Only to find out, it was really my prison tomb

How could it be? No family for me
I said to the lord, why did you do this to me?! Send me into a world of hate and onto a family who dont appreciate the blessing you sent to them

A child like me who they dont even see
The pain is deep, to deep for me
So i cry out to u lord because i need you desperately

How did it all go wrong
Should i have never been born?
I question this lord because my family is so torn

What can i do to make it right
There is still no sign of my family’s love, so i cry every night
Wishing it could…

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Walk in My Shoes

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

Try walking in my shoes
Waking up everyday not knowing
what to do
Feeling like the whole world is so against you

With every wandering eye
Wondering why, why are you here

But Excuse me, I have nowhere to go, neither here nor there
So please stop judging me & stop with the stares

I know stories like this are not often rare but im here to tell you, that this is me & my 2 daughters current nightmare

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I Wanna Live Not Just Survive

I wanna live not just survive
I wanna be able to wake up happy
Not always cry

I hate feeling this way but thats whats inside, so I have to let it out, so I wont scream and shout

Im a Inspirational Poet
My struggle is real, just by looking at me
you wouldn’t even know it
Because no matter what im going through, I always manage to keep a smile on my face

But deep down inside theres a bitter taste thats trying to subside
But thats not always easy to do
Hide all of the hardships my family and I are currently going through

Yeah…who knew?!
Im Poetically Spoken
And I fell too
That just goes to show you the struggle is real

I just wanna be able to live my life and be happy, well…thats just how I feel

We tried seeking help but no one seems to care, which left my girls and I in the middle of nowhere Literally sleeping in my car, wasnt the best decision of mine, just means we didnt have a place to lay our heads at the time

I say it again I just wannna live and not just survive

I find myself stating that all the time
Cries in the dark, 3 broken hearts
It just seems like we dont matter but I know we do

Try taking a moment and step in our shoes
How would u feel if the whole world forgot about you?
Going to so called family who often turn there backs because they didnt care where we were at, under a bridge or in a parking lot

Is this the meaning of family? I think NOT!

Im Poetically Spoken, im here to share these powerful words from 3 voices that went unheard

United we are, united will always be

This is all apart of our dark and stormy journey, spoken poetically

Email : Godschild4048@gmail.com

THANK YOU TO MY FOLLOWERS

I would like to send a all out Thank you to all of my followers, Thanking you all for visiting my page, supporting me and taking the time to read my poems and giving me such inspiration to keep on writing and becoming the best writer and author that i can be.

Right now my family and I are facing a tough road in our life but with the grace of God we know we will come out on top and be very glorious.

THANK YOU TO YOU ALL and GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU WITH YOUR TALENTS AND GIFTS. Keep up the good work. From the heart! ❤

Strong Black Woman

Let me tell you about that Strong Black Woman
She’s a real good woman
Who wont put up a fight
If you just do her right

What she really wants is for a man
to be that true guy
And stand by her side
And then you’ll know why
She’s one of a kind
If you just take the time
To see her real worth
She’s God’s sent to earth

A Diamond in a rough is not good enough
For that Strong Black Woman
Because she dont give up
When things are real tough

Strong Black Women
Just keep your head up
Before your fed up and lose your way
Sometimes it feels like we often lose sight
But God will make sure we always find our way

Strong Black Woman
Dont hesitate to tell that damn man
Who said your weak
You tell him not today
He took you through hell
And shook your faith
But all the things he took you through
Made you a brand new you

Strong Black Woman
This is what you say
You thought i was a fool
Not loving me
But only YOU! Gave YOU! the strength to take me through the things you took ME! through

But I’m a Strong Black Woman
And my life is renewed
A No good damn man
Aint worth the fuss
If you’re a real good woman
Then you’ll know your truth worth

A Strong Black Woman knows, good enough is not enough

A Real good woman well…..she knows whats right
She’ll keep her damn head up and fight the fight

To all My Black Women
This is Dedicated to you
Dont just let any man
Make you feel like
You dont do you
Them days are over
When you played the fool

Strong Black Women deserves
Nothing but the best
You heard what i said
Now go tell the rest

Strong Black Women often come in last
Best damn women, Best you ever had

A Strong Black Woman
You just dont like
You say she’s to mean, to fussy, and always wants to fight

The fact and the matter is
She earned that right
Without that Strong Black Woman
There would be No you

So if it seems like sometimes she’s mean
She Still and always will be
That Strong Black Nubian Queen

When Darkness Falls

Most of my life the sun never shined
I pray for the light through my deepest darkess times
I lay in my bed asking God why?
Why you chose me? To live in this life

My world is so cold and its hard to survive
I try to believe that the worst is behind
When i take a step forward, i fall several times
Making me feel like im losing my mind

I say on to thee
MY GOD! I WANNA BE FREE!
Free of all the pain and all the misery

IM GOING INSANE!
OH GOD! CANT YOU SEE!?
I dont wanna remain in this life you gave to me

I call out your name
MY LORD OH HOLY! Forgive me
MY GOD have mercy

Deliver my soul because im losing control
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I drop to my knees and seen why Jesus wept

My Father in Heaven, have you turned your back on me?
I feel so alone because you never talk to me
I cry every night, hoping that you will see
I wanna be saved and serve you faithfully

The sun never shines, it only rains and storms on me
Tough times ahead, and more tears to shed

I cry out, NOMORE!
I cant take this spiritual war!

No one knows what i have to adore
They wouldnt believe the things that i saw

See, i believe that the end is near
Satan is whispering, hes whispering in my ear, saying Girl you better, you better fear
He grabbed on to me and said he aint going nowhere

This is the burden i carry with me
Do you hear me My Lord?
I need you desperately
He said on to me, turn away from him, satan knows that he can never win because the path he chose, a world full of sin
His life has already been condemned

I said to the lord, I thank you gracefully because all along you’ve carried me

Its hard to believe that the devil is after me
He comes into the night and attacks me in my sleep
I say my prayers to the one and only

Our Father in Heaven can you please protect me?
I just wanna be free and live my life in peace but im feeling so scared because its to much to bare

The sun never shines, just darkness falls on me
Will victory be mine? Or will i be damned for eternity?

Single Ladies

Single ladies, yea thats what i said
Because i dont let just any man get into my bed and play with my head

Whispering sweet lines just to see how my legs unwind
You better step in line
Because its gonna take alot more than that to get to know me from behind

I need someone to speak the truth, instead of always lying
Not into playing games and i dont like the crying

No disrespect, i diserve nothing but the best
Its what every woman wants, we want more, we cant settle for less

Single Lady, thats who i am
Its hard to find the right one, especially that good man

You know the one, that got you in the palm of his hand
He wont let you fall, because on his 2 feet, you will land

Best damn man
Best you ever had, even when he gets on your nerves, you cant stay mad

Sometimes i wonder, can a man like this even exist
Oh well, i guess another thing to add to my single Ladies list

Oh dont get me wrong, i dont plan on being this way for long
I just get tired of singing this same ole playa’s song

I dont know about yall, i can only speak for me
I need a man to treat his home like a castle and change my status from single lady to his one and only queen bee
Who have eyes just for me

Someone who i love and adore, what more can a woman ask for

Hmmm let me see…..make sure that man is faithful, has God in his heart and trustworthy, otherwise his love wont be truly sincere, dont forget the loyalty

This goes out to all my single ladies, before you decide to go flesh to flesh, always remember, we diserve nothing but the best

Now go tell the rest

You have now been served by the single ladies word

This Woman Hurts

I Never really thought about it
Until i sat down and cried
Why do so many men come into my life?
They come into my life just to say goodbye

Leaving me by myself asking God why?
Why is it always me?
The one that hurts and cries
My whole life has changed from all of the lies

All i ever wanted was for a man to call my own
But somehow i wound up being all alone
Now my life is filled with shame
The pain in my heart remains the same
This woman hurts because of a playa’s game

I am a human being, just like the rest
Looking for love, not this mess

What got me in this trouble, was listening to my flesh
Instead of using my head
And realizing this is one of life’s test

If i wanted to be treated as a whore, i would’ve been went through satan’s doors
Having you fella’s screaming for more

But no, i chose that detour
Which means i expect more
More from a man to know and find out

Understand who i am

NOT JUST WHAM BLAM!
THANK YOU MA’AM

Theres more to me that meets the eye
If you just give it a try
Instead of wandering about me beneath and how i am between the sheets

Maybe one day finally that real man will come along and see
Monique is truly that wife to be
My reality now
Im here on playa’s ground
Its either them or me we shall see

Did i learn from my mistakes?
Or accept defeat

HELL TO THE NO!
Because this woman hurts from all the dirt
Being misses nicey nice
That dont work

The rain of pain, that was always near
Real woman here!!
So you better beware!!

How deep is the pain?
Deep as shit
And i cant take another hit

You Men better quit before i catch a damn fit!

“SNIP SNIP!”

This woman hurts and i dont care one bit

May have been one of the sweetest Woman in the world!

Just became a playa’s meanest Bad Girl!

Family Went Wrong

Family went wrong from the day i was born
There was no sign of love except from above

I lay in my mother’s womb
Only to find out, it was really my prison tomb

How could it be? No family for me
I said to the lord, why did you do this to me?! Send me into a world of hate and onto a family who dont appreciate the blessing you sent to them

A child like me who they dont even see
The pain is deep, to deep for me
So i cry out to u lord because i need you desperately

How did it all go wrong
Should i have never been born?
I question this lord because my family is so torn

What can i do to make it right
There is still no sign of my family’s love, so i cry every night
Wishing it could be my family and me But that can never be true because me and my family are through

I never existed to them, a child they turned their back to
Born November 4th 1972

My life didnt end there, it only just begun
The lord said to me, your true blessings are near and your victory will be One

The day will come when you will see that family that went wrong is in the past you see
You’re blessed with 2 girls, who loves you faithfully

Our bond is strong and very tight, a Family once went wrong has now gone right

Thank you Jesus with all my might
For helping me win this endless fight

God you answered my prayers and washed away all of my tears, you gave me the strength and courage to face my fears on being alone

That pain i once felt is finally gone
Now my 2 children and I can peacefully move on

Nobody Knows

Nobody knows why my brother
Chose to end his life with a drug overdose

When we were little
We were so close

Oh how i loved my big brother
Out of everybody i loved him the most

Nobody knows about my little sister
Damn i really miss her

Her smart little mouth
You know the one that cursed us all out
This was a way for her to express herself
Sometimes she would just shout

Nobody knows that’s not all she was about
She was a good girl, a single mother even
Baby girl just chose the wrong route

Losing two siblings in the same damn year
Nobody really knows when their time is near

Nobody knows who i really am
Im a Inspirational Poet
And a Strong Black Woman

Nobody knows why i write the way i write
I write about the truth, based on true life

Nobody knows when the world will get a chance to meet me
Aslong as i keep telling my stories correctly

The world would have met me known as the girl who always spoke her words poetically

Nobody knows if some will cheer for me
Or basically just hate on me

But what i do know still in all, imma always stand tall
And take what God has giving me, a Blessing and accept it gracefully

Nobody knows the decisions we all make or the path we decide to take

What we should know is, these things can either make or break us

So at the end of the day
These are the things we need to know, before its all to late

Nobody knows should be NOW WE ALL KNOW
That life is to short and we cant take too long to right all of our wrongs

Just a little knowledge
Hope it wasnt to much
Written sincerely through my Poetic Touch, God Bless