Tag Archive | Pain

Where Do We Go From Here?

Where do we go from here?

I know we was dealt with some difficult cards in life
But we just cant stop there.
God has a bigger plan for us, I can feel it……I know its near.

What I have learned during this tough time and tribulation
That everything happens for a reason
Everyone goes through a tough time,
Just so happen this is our season
There is no devine reason.

He is our God Almighty
He will see us to the end
And only on him you shall depend on
Because he will take you through,
Stay faithful to him because hes the only one that can save you.

He will lift you up, God doesn’t ask for much, your faithfulness, and your daily praises to him, which will put you on the right track, to repentency to get rid of our sins.

Where do we go from here?
I should know that by now, being that my girls and I have been in these streets for a while, even tho we still manage to keep our smiles, often feeling like 3 exiles.

We seen some highs and also lows, were done with these struggles, thats as far as it goes!!

That family of mine, truly left us behind, but this was the last time.
They didnt believe our story because they said I was lying, sleeping in the streets is not funny to me, nor is it supposed to be our reality, But it doesnt matter, God knows our truth, he is the one that kept us safe, each and every time we were moving place to place.

While family wondering why we’re able to text and blog, this is how we are able to get through the day so far, while sleeping day to day in our car.

I dont understand the things that people worry about, the truth and the matter is, this whole damn time, they could’ve been helping us out.

Where do we go from here?
Like the Phoenix, we shall rise from these ashes.
Never looking back, on the way to our destinys, this is our truth and a known fact, Finally Going down the right path and staying on the right track.

About Me…

My Name is Monique, Im a Inspirational Poet/Writer/SongWriter/ I enjoy telling My Life stories Through My Poems. I’m currently finishing up my autobiography and I am in the middle of writing two children’s books. My plans are to work my way on to the best sellers list with the grace of God! BUSINESS INQUIRIES and CONTACT EMAIL : Godschild4048@gmail.com

Family Went Wrong

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

Family went wrong from the day i was born
There was no sign of love except from above

I lay in my mother’s womb
Only to find out, it was really my prison tomb

How could it be? No family for me
I said to the lord, why did you do this to me?! Send me into a world of hate and onto a family who dont appreciate the blessing you sent to them

A child like me who they dont even see
The pain is deep, to deep for me
So i cry out to u lord because i need you desperately

How did it all go wrong
Should i have never been born?
I question this lord because my family is so torn

What can i do to make it right
There is still no sign of my family’s love, so i cry every night
Wishing it could…

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Walk in My Shoes

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

Try walking in my shoes
Waking up everyday not knowing
what to do
Feeling like the whole world is so against you

With every wandering eye
Wondering why, why are you here

But Excuse me, I have nowhere to go, neither here nor there
So please stop judging me & stop with the stares

I know stories like this are not often rare but im here to tell you, that this is me & my 2 daughters current nightmare

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OH HOW I LOVE THEE

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

My one and only
He use to make me feel like
Im the only one, his number one

And then it begun
He got up in my face
Such a disgrace
Making me feel for my love
He will kill
I was dying inside
Asking the lord why?
Why did this man choose to degrade
And mistreat me
I loved him wholeheartedly

Oh how i love thee
But all he ever did was lie and
Cheat on me

I wish i was blind
Because i really couldn’t see
But not literally

Atleast i would have an excuse for all the abuse
And telling myself this man dont care for you

Looking at myself from within
These were the days my troubles began
I felt like i stepped into a world of No mans land
Because all this man wanted to do was raise his hands

I just didn’t understand
You…

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I Wanna Live Not Just Survive

I wanna live not just survive
I wanna be able to wake up happy
Not always cry

I hate feeling this way but thats whats inside, so I have to let it out, so I wont scream and shout

Im a Inspirational Poet
My struggle is real, just by looking at me
you wouldn’t even know it
Because no matter what im going through, I always manage to keep a smile on my face

But deep down inside theres a bitter taste thats trying to subside
But thats not always easy to do
Hide all of the hardships my family and I are currently going through

Yeah…who knew?!
Im Poetically Spoken
And I fell too
That just goes to show you the struggle is real

I just wanna be able to live my life and be happy, well…thats just how I feel

We tried seeking help but no one seems to care, which left my girls and I in the middle of nowhere Literally sleeping in my car, wasnt the best decision of mine, just means we didnt have a place to lay our heads at the time

I say it again I just wannna live and not just survive

I find myself stating that all the time
Cries in the dark, 3 broken hearts
It just seems like we dont matter but I know we do

Try taking a moment and step in our shoes
How would u feel if the whole world forgot about you?
Going to so called family who often turn there backs because they didnt care where we were at, under a bridge or in a parking lot

Is this the meaning of family? I think NOT!

Im Poetically Spoken, im here to share these powerful words from 3 voices that went unheard

United we are, united will always be

This is all apart of our dark and stormy journey, spoken poetically

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When Darkness Falls

Most of my life the sun never shined
I pray for the light through my deepest darkess times
I lay in my bed asking God why?
Why you chose me? To live in this life

My world is so cold and its hard to survive
I try to believe that the worst is behind
When i take a step forward, i fall several times
Making me feel like im losing my mind

I say on to thee
MY GOD! I WANNA BE FREE!
Free of all the pain and all the misery

IM GOING INSANE!
OH GOD! CANT YOU SEE!?
I dont wanna remain in this life you gave to me

I call out your name
MY LORD OH HOLY! Forgive me
MY GOD have mercy

Deliver my soul because im losing control
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I drop to my knees and seen why Jesus wept

My Father in Heaven, have you turned your back on me?
I feel so alone because you never talk to me
I cry every night, hoping that you will see
I wanna be saved and serve you faithfully

The sun never shines, it only rains and storms on me
Tough times ahead, and more tears to shed

I cry out, NOMORE!
I cant take this spiritual war!

No one knows what i have to adore
They wouldnt believe the things that i saw

See, i believe that the end is near
Satan is whispering, hes whispering in my ear, saying Girl you better, you better fear
He grabbed on to me and said he aint going nowhere

This is the burden i carry with me
Do you hear me My Lord?
I need you desperately
He said on to me, turn away from him, satan knows that he can never win because the path he chose, a world full of sin
His life has already been condemned

I said to the lord, I thank you gracefully because all along you’ve carried me

Its hard to believe that the devil is after me
He comes into the night and attacks me in my sleep
I say my prayers to the one and only

Our Father in Heaven can you please protect me?
I just wanna be free and live my life in peace but im feeling so scared because its to much to bare

The sun never shines, just darkness falls on me
Will victory be mine? Or will i be damned for eternity?