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Walk in My Shoes

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

Try walking in my shoes
Waking up everyday not knowing
what to do
Feeling like the whole world is so against you

With every wandering eye
Wondering why, why are you here

But Excuse me, I have nowhere to go, neither here nor there
So please stop judging me & stop with the stares

I know stories like this are not often rare but im here to tell you, that this is me & my 2 daughters current nightmare

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OH HOW I LOVE THEE

My Pain, My Life, My Struggles, My Fight

My one and only
He use to make me feel like
Im the only one, his number one

And then it begun
He got up in my face
Such a disgrace
Making me feel for my love
He will kill
I was dying inside
Asking the lord why?
Why did this man choose to degrade
And mistreat me
I loved him wholeheartedly

Oh how i love thee
But all he ever did was lie and
Cheat on me

I wish i was blind
Because i really couldn’t see
But not literally

Atleast i would have an excuse for all the abuse
And telling myself this man dont care for you

Looking at myself from within
These were the days my troubles began
I felt like i stepped into a world of No mans land
Because all this man wanted to do was raise his hands

I just didn’t understand
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I Wanna Live Not Just Survive

I wanna live not just survive
I wanna be able to wake up happy
Not always cry

I hate feeling this way but thats whats inside, so I have to let it out, so I wont scream and shout

Im a Inspirational Poet
My struggle is real, just by looking at me
you wouldn’t even know it
Because no matter what im going through, I always manage to keep a smile on my face

But deep down inside theres a bitter taste thats trying to subside
But thats not always easy to do
Hide all of the hardships my family and I are currently going through

Yeah…who knew?!
Im Poetically Spoken
And I fell too
That just goes to show you the struggle is real

I just wanna be able to live my life and be happy, well…thats just how I feel

We tried seeking help but no one seems to care, which left my girls and I in the middle of nowhere Literally sleeping in my car, wasnt the best decision of mine, just means we didnt have a place to lay our heads at the time

I say it again I just wannna live and not just survive

I find myself stating that all the time
Cries in the dark, 3 broken hearts
It just seems like we dont matter but I know we do

Try taking a moment and step in our shoes
How would u feel if the whole world forgot about you?
Going to so called family who often turn there backs because they didnt care where we were at, under a bridge or in a parking lot

Is this the meaning of family? I think NOT!

Im Poetically Spoken, im here to share these powerful words from 3 voices that went unheard

United we are, united will always be

This is all apart of our dark and stormy journey, spoken poetically

Email : Godschild4048@gmail.com

When Darkness Falls

Most of my life the sun never shined
I pray for the light through my deepest darkess times
I lay in my bed asking God why?
Why you chose me? To live in this life

My world is so cold and its hard to survive
I try to believe that the worst is behind
When i take a step forward, i fall several times
Making me feel like im losing my mind

I say on to thee
MY GOD! I WANNA BE FREE!
Free of all the pain and all the misery

IM GOING INSANE!
OH GOD! CANT YOU SEE!?
I dont wanna remain in this life you gave to me

I call out your name
MY LORD OH HOLY! Forgive me
MY GOD have mercy

Deliver my soul because im losing control
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I drop to my knees and seen why Jesus wept

My Father in Heaven, have you turned your back on me?
I feel so alone because you never talk to me
I cry every night, hoping that you will see
I wanna be saved and serve you faithfully

The sun never shines, it only rains and storms on me
Tough times ahead, and more tears to shed

I cry out, NOMORE!
I cant take this spiritual war!

No one knows what i have to adore
They wouldnt believe the things that i saw

See, i believe that the end is near
Satan is whispering, hes whispering in my ear, saying Girl you better, you better fear
He grabbed on to me and said he aint going nowhere

This is the burden i carry with me
Do you hear me My Lord?
I need you desperately
He said on to me, turn away from him, satan knows that he can never win because the path he chose, a world full of sin
His life has already been condemned

I said to the lord, I thank you gracefully because all along you’ve carried me

Its hard to believe that the devil is after me
He comes into the night and attacks me in my sleep
I say my prayers to the one and only

Our Father in Heaven can you please protect me?
I just wanna be free and live my life in peace but im feeling so scared because its to much to bare

The sun never shines, just darkness falls on me
Will victory be mine? Or will i be damned for eternity?

This Woman Hurts

I Never really thought about it
Until i sat down and cried
Why do so many men come into my life?
They come into my life just to say goodbye

Leaving me by myself asking God why?
Why is it always me?
The one that hurts and cries
My whole life has changed from all of the lies

All i ever wanted was for a man to call my own
But somehow i wound up being all alone
Now my life is filled with shame
The pain in my heart remains the same
This woman hurts because of a playa’s game

I am a human being, just like the rest
Looking for love, not this mess

What got me in this trouble, was listening to my flesh
Instead of using my head
And realizing this is one of life’s test

If i wanted to be treated as a whore, i would’ve been went through satan’s doors
Having you fella’s screaming for more

But no, i chose that detour
Which means i expect more
More from a man to know and find out

Understand who i am

NOT JUST WHAM BLAM!
THANK YOU MA’AM

Theres more to me that meets the eye
If you just give it a try
Instead of wandering about me beneath and how i am between the sheets

Maybe one day finally that real man will come along and see
Monique is truly that wife to be
My reality now
Im here on playa’s ground
Its either them or me we shall see

Did i learn from my mistakes?
Or accept defeat

HELL TO THE NO!
Because this woman hurts from all the dirt
Being misses nicey nice
That dont work

The rain of pain, that was always near
Real woman here!!
So you better beware!!

How deep is the pain?
Deep as shit
And i cant take another hit

You Men better quit before i catch a damn fit!

“SNIP SNIP!”

This woman hurts and i dont care one bit

May have been one of the sweetest Woman in the world!

Just became a playa’s meanest Bad Girl!

Family Went Wrong

Family went wrong from the day i was born
There was no sign of love except from above

I lay in my mother’s womb
Only to find out, it was really my prison tomb

How could it be? No family for me
I said to the lord, why did you do this to me?! Send me into a world of hate and onto a family who dont appreciate the blessing you sent to them

A child like me who they dont even see
The pain is deep, to deep for me
So i cry out to u lord because i need you desperately

How did it all go wrong
Should i have never been born?
I question this lord because my family is so torn

What can i do to make it right
There is still no sign of my family’s love, so i cry every night
Wishing it could be my family and me But that can never be true because me and my family are through

I never existed to them, a child they turned their back to
Born November 4th 1972

My life didnt end there, it only just begun
The lord said to me, your true blessings are near and your victory will be One

The day will come when you will see that family that went wrong is in the past you see
You’re blessed with 2 girls, who loves you faithfully

Our bond is strong and very tight, a Family once went wrong has now gone right

Thank you Jesus with all my might
For helping me win this endless fight

God you answered my prayers and washed away all of my tears, you gave me the strength and courage to face my fears on being alone

That pain i once felt is finally gone
Now my 2 children and I can peacefully move on

Nobody Knows

Nobody knows why my brother
Chose to end his life with a drug overdose

When we were little
We were so close

Oh how i loved my big brother
Out of everybody i loved him the most

Nobody knows about my little sister
Damn i really miss her

Her smart little mouth
You know the one that cursed us all out
This was a way for her to express herself
Sometimes she would just shout

Nobody knows that’s not all she was about
She was a good girl, a single mother even
Baby girl just chose the wrong route

Losing two siblings in the same damn year
Nobody really knows when their time is near

Nobody knows who i really am
Im a Inspirational Poet
And a Strong Black Woman

Nobody knows why i write the way i write
I write about the truth, based on true life

Nobody knows when the world will get a chance to meet me
Aslong as i keep telling my stories correctly

The world would have met me known as the girl who always spoke her words poetically

Nobody knows if some will cheer for me
Or basically just hate on me

But what i do know still in all, imma always stand tall
And take what God has giving me, a Blessing and accept it gracefully

Nobody knows the decisions we all make or the path we decide to take

What we should know is, these things can either make or break us

So at the end of the day
These are the things we need to know, before its all to late

Nobody knows should be NOW WE ALL KNOW
That life is to short and we cant take too long to right all of our wrongs

Just a little knowledge
Hope it wasnt to much
Written sincerely through my Poetic Touch, God Bless

Forgotten

Why are we forgotten like we are someones blast from the past?
I just had to ask

Because im really tired of being labled as the outcast

Im really not that bad
I just tell it like it is
And for that you cant get mad

I have my flaws just like anyone else
The difference with me is
I dont make anybody feel bad about
themselves and i never will because its just not in me

I was never a jealous person
And i dont specialize in envy

Unfortunately alot of judgemental souls staring at me from head to toe
Meanwhile yall just dont know what we are going through, if you only knew

But then again you never will because weve been forgotten by all of you

OH HOW I LOVE THEE

My one and only
He use to make me feel like
Im the only one, his number one

And then it begun
He got up in my face
Such a disgrace
Making me feel for my love
He will kill
I was dying inside
Asking the lord why?
Why did this man choose to degrade
And mistreat me
I loved him wholeheartedly

Oh how i love thee
But all he ever did was lie and
Cheat on me

I wish i was blind
Because i really couldn’t see
But not literally

Atleast i would have an excuse for all the abuse
And telling myself this man dont care for you

Looking at myself from within
These were the days my troubles began
I felt like i stepped into a world of No mans land
Because all this man wanted to do was raise his hands

I just didn’t understand
You told me you loved me
And said you were my man
One of my biggest fans

You tore me down
Just because you thought u can
Your heart was black, it was all an act

Sealed with a kiss
How would i have known
I would meet your fist

Was i bamboozled?
No i was just tricked
This wasnt love, this was an
abusers blitz
This was for real, some real bad shit

Now i know how to let go
PAIN NOMORE!

Will i ever adore
Loving myself less and someone else more

I talk that talk and walk that walk
Allowing any abuse
I realize that was all my fault

Oh how i love thee
I’m more than a woman, its all in me
I was once blind
Now i can see

Being held captive, emotional and physically and all that misery

GUESS WHAT!

My world of pain no longer hinders me

Walk in My Shoes

Try walking in my shoes
Waking up everyday not knowing
what to do
Feeling like the whole world is so against you

With every wandering eye
Wondering why, why are you here

But Excuse me, I have nowhere to go, neither here nor there
So please stop judging me & stop with the stares

I know stories like this are not often rare but im here to tell you, that this is me & my 2 daughters current nightmare