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OH HOW I LOVE THEE

My one and only
He use to make me feel like
Im the only one, his number one

And then it begun
He got up in my face
Such a disgrace
Making me feel for my love
He will kill
I was dying inside
Asking the lord why?
Why did this man choose to degrade
And mistreat me
I loved him wholeheartedly

Oh how i love thee
But all he ever did was lie and
Cheat on me

I wish i was blind
Because i really couldn’t see
But not literally

Atleast i would have an excuse for all the abuse
And telling myself this man dont care for you

Looking at myself from within
These were the days my troubles began
I felt like i stepped into a world of No mans land
Because all this man wanted to do was raise his hands

I just didn’t understand
You told me you loved me
And said you were my man
One of my biggest fans

You tore me down
Just because you thought u can
Your heart was black, it was all an act

Sealed with a kiss
How would i have known
I would meet your fist

Was i bamboozled?
No i was just tricked
This wasnt love, this was an
abusers blitz
This was for real, some real bad shit

Now i know how to let go
PAIN NOMORE!

Will i ever adore
Loving myself less and someone else more

I talk that talk and walk that walk
Allowing any abuse
I realize that was all my fault

Oh how i love thee
I’m more than a woman, its all in me
I was once blind
Now i can see

Being held captive, emotional and physically and all that misery

GUESS WHAT!

My world of pain no longer hinders me

Im Drowning

I’m Drowning! Can somebody help me out?!
Why cant anybody hear me scream and shout!

How in the hell did I fall down this well?
I fell on down, all one hundred and fifty pounds

What!

Nobody didn’t hear that sound?

BOOM!

A Big Ole Crack
Lord I hope I didn’t break my back

I’m drowning and i’m calling
Funny how nobody didn’t see me falling

It happened a few minutes ago
Cant understand why anybody doesn’t know

I’m drowning, Please help me out!
I dont know how long I can keep the water from entering my mouth

Please dont ignore my cries & screams
Because if you do

Well…

Thats just mean

I’m Drowning
I’m in this well
And I still dont know how in the hell

Was i pushed ? or even thrown
All i know is, i’m drowning
And the answer is still unknown

Hopefully one day i’ll find out the truth

Did i fall down?
Or did someone give me a boost?

It really dont matter now

The fact is somebody left me here to drown